Sleeping Dream

Long before Jack was born, I dreamed of motherhood. I thought about what kind of parent I would be and how motherhood would feel. Psalm 37:4 says, "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." God has truly given me the desires of my heart. He planted in my heart the desire to be a mother. And then in his own good time, he made me a mother.

I had no idea what this would be like. I did not know that this evening my little sweetheart would throw a fit because he did not want to go to the bathroom. I did not know he would fuss his way through nighttime toothbrushing and face washing only to surprise me by running down the hall unprompted to his Daddy to say, "Night night".

I did not know what mixture of pride and pain I would feel as my sweet boy told me "Go sleep. Probe on toe." as if he needed to remind me that he needs his oxygen levels monitored as he sleeps.

I do not know what surprises this night or tomorrow might hold but I know that right now my dream is sleeping...